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When LB meet LV - A long journey has begun..

 

It is just happened like this without any reason that this guy come into life and changed my life. His music has coloured my black & white life with a colourful colour. I also no idea why i like to talk with him, perhaps because we both are music lover and also we got alot of smiliar things in life.

Erm...
He like Music ; I like Music
He play music ; I listen to Music
His name is LV ; My name is LB
He is VIRGO ; I am VIRGO too
Music is his life ; Music is my life

I guess this is a excellent reason why we are friend. (Are we friend now? He say yes before... so i guess is yes gua. Hahahah)

Too weird to explain how come they, CROSSFIRE meant alot to me. Even it is weird but it is true. If you always drop by to my blog, you all may know how is my life for the past half year. I jump into a LOVE LAKE and i almost drown in it. I also almost get myself commit suicide and also hurting myself all because of HIM! Yes is HIM!
*gosh* thinking back to that moment, i am so lucky i didnt DIED or else i not going to see this guy now.*Oh THank God, Thanks TML & Thanks Caryn*hahaha

So now 'HIM' is totally out from my life now! I just say GOODBYE to him last 2 weeks because i guess my heart no place for him already.
Really happy i am walking out from the dark life and also life is more meaningful with them now (:

Some of you might think it is so ridiculous that how come someone i just get to know 2 weeks really change my life? Anyhow, sometimes things just happen like this! You dont know how it happen and it just happened like this.
All i really want to say now is I LOVE MY LIFE NOW AND I ALSO LOVE ALL THE PEOPLES AROUND ME NOW!

CROSSFIRE - THIS ISNT YOURS GUYS LONG JOURNEY HAS BEGUN...
THIS IS ALSO MY JOURNEY HAS BEGUN WITH YOU GUYS.... (:

亲爱的你就是为来的方向

亲爱的你就是为来的方向；

在大的风浪一起走过；

就算辛苦也甜在你我心頭；

就算辛苦也会笑着走．．．　

Thanks for coming to my life and bring alots of happiness into it. You guys has bring away my dark cloudy life and change it with a colourful rainbow life.

Thanks to special someone who ...... showing me the meaning of happiness. (:

Thanks Royce

This morning an unexpected call from Grace and the afternoon unexpected to see someone.

This afternoon I attended Guang Liang Promo Event at Genting. But really unexpected is the host of today is Royce from MyFm.

I meet him 1st time at Cyndi promo (no no no.. should be MyFm 50hours broadcasting) then only at Cyndi promo. I though he can’t remember me anymore.

Today I wasn’t at the front line because a lot of peoples there already. So I only manage to squeeze in the middle. But I can’t expected Royce see me and he said “Oh, I see a familiar face here when he saw me”

I was like want to hide my head in the beg. (:


Guang Liang do not sing today because he say he didn’t bring the CD and also he voice isn’t ready to sing. But somehow he does sing “Tong Hua” without the music.

At first I don’t think want to buy the album but at last I also end up buying his album. Since Guang Liang Pin Guan break, I don’t really crazy about them already because I switch to 5566.

But I have to admit that his song is really great.

The most happening part, I accidentally spotted Royce after the show. So I was walking towards him and he see me and he give me a smile. I doing a hand sign for him asking him can we take picture. He knocked his head.

“Do you still remember me?” this is what I asked when I was next to him,

“Of cos I remember. How come I can forget” muahaha….

So we took picture and chat for a while.

He invited me to the 7pm showcase at Sg. Wang but I rejected and lied that I am working later. =______________=’’’ what a stupid me.

But I think I am much happier to see Royce today than seeing Guang Liang I have to admit. ^__^

First time see Royce in coat so kinda shock because he really looks great in it. Double happiness, will it be third happiness ?

(Ho..ho..ho.. stop mimpi, I know someone is shouting there already)

Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

Perhaps you all might feel weird of my tittle above...

A year before and a year now, alots of thing happen in my life. From bad to good and also from good to best... well, also from good to bad.

A year before i am still Ms. NoBody.. but now everything change. Even i lost something before but thank god for his loving and send me more than what i have lost.

Now i have my 2nd family in KL (Pinkies), my beloved one, my challenging job and also lifestyle getting better.

Sometimes, i really think am i dream...

How long will this sweet memory remain ?

I really want to thanks "him". When the time i need someone alot, he is the one who is giving me support and cry with me when i crying. Hahaha... He is the one who is always advise me to love myself and also he is the one who bring alot of joy to my life this half year time. Without him, i dont know how am i now.

Kinda miss him, currently he is oversea for study. I know you keep your promise, i do as well. Dont feel guilty for cant celebrate B'day with me o. Remember our year end vacation ? hehehe....

~~I miss you alot~~

Reality About LOVE...

I dont know where to start... just suddenly i feel that love is making cant breath now.

Suddenly i realize now i dont know how to love a person and aslo dont know how to let a person to love me. Perhaps is because i fall down too many times in love so now for me i dont feel secure in love.

I just wondering why everytime when i decide to let go a relation, only then the another party realize how much i love him. I hate myself alot. I hate myself because too much rules in my life. Why cant just i accept them since i still have the feeling towards them.

I always say "if i let go, i will never turn back"... but i never happy at all too.

Love... this word is as heavy as a sky. If make me cant breath. How many times i want to let go but...

But at this moment i am very sure no one can walk in to my heart cause that someone haven't walk out from my heart. I don't want to anyone else at this moment.

For the someone, please let me alone... Thank you for you love but i am so sorry cause i cant accept it now.

Give me some time...

An Unforgetable 14 April 2007

This is a day to remember. Today I go down to KL just for one reason. The reason is Daniel & Pinkies.
Yes, I am going to meet Daniel in person for the first time in my life. Even I saw him several times
before but just in the far view only.

My heart beat very fast when I arrive on the spot and when the stage plays Daniel’s songs, it makes me more
excited.

Around 3pm I see pinkies arrived. From a nervous feeling it turns to happy feeling when the pinkies give me a
sweet smile and wave to me. This is the second time I gather with pinkies and I do really enjoy it. Will we
chatting before the show, suddenly a worker come over to me and ask me do I wish to go up to the stage to join
the games. She also told me I will be giving Daniel’s poster with his signature. Without thinking twice, I agree.

The show start with Jason, MyFm Dj, running around catching us to gather in front of the stage.
The Mc of the day is FeiBi. She look very thin and also so sweet.

Before the artist start to perform, FeiBi ask the contestant to come to stage to battle for the games.
There are all four contestant and I think all are from the pinkies. We are giving 5 balloons and also a sword.
We need to use the sword to break the balloons. Even I didn’t win but it’s a nice experience. We all be given
Daniel’s and Nita’s poster each. The feeling is greet when Fei Bi ask us all hold the poster and take photo.
The media took our photo. At that moment, I do have a strange feeling. My feeling is like an artist posting for
those media to take photo.

Nita perform first with 2 songs. Up coming is Daniel singing the first song “xien zai hen xiang jien ni”.
Is Daniel! Oh My God, is Daniel! He is so cute!

I took up my handphone and record this unforgettable moment. In the middle part, Daniel suddenly stand in front
of me and looking at me and sing for me. At that moment I really shocked and just smile and looking at him.
Before he end his song, he come down to the stage and shack hand with the fans and for sure I raise my hand and
he shack my hand. At that time I really want to shout “Daddy, Daniel shack my hand and I saw Daniel in person”.

The showcase end about 4pm. Now I know why pinkies love Daniel so much. Daniel even is a superstar but he never
acting like a superstar. He just be himself and always raise his sweet smile to all. First time I see an artist
drive to his own showcase and that is our Daniel. A sweet Daniel with his cutie green color Sevy.

Today really a lot of “first time” happen in my life.

First time I,
-meet with pinkies (I love u all)
-go on stage to play games
-holding Daniel’s poster and media took my picture.
-see Daniel in person so a close views
-shack hand with Daniel
-Daniel looks at me and sings for me

The day didn’t end like this. Coming up next, second part of an unforgettable day of 14 April 2007.

Thank you Daniel and Pinkies for everything. You all are the power and the spirit for me goes on everyday in
my life in KL. Without you all I think now I already packed my clothes and going back to Sarawak already.

Muakss.. see you all again in 21 April 2007.

Someone there for me…

Sweet dreams
is what he said as he went underground away from me into the dark
Forced me
from all my innocence into the very ordinary day today.
Watch and wait and see what comes


From the Soul of the man who is uncertain
When the sand washes out to the sea…
when the dreams fall away
and the promises forgotten
will there still be someone there for me… for me


He sings
and with his hands he holds a microphone and speaks so loud for all to hear
I’d give
whatever is left of all the work I’d do my hands are tired from all the years
See and wait and look I will


With the soul of the man who is uncertain
When the sand washes out to the sea
When the dreams fall away and the promises forgotten
Will there still be someone there for me... for me


Watch and wait and see what comes


From the Soul of the man who is uncertain
When the sand washes out to the sea…
when the dreams fall away and the promises forgotten
will there still be someone there for me

With the soul of the man who is uncertain
When the sand washes out to the sea
When the dreams fall away and the promises forgotten
Will there still be someone there for me…
promises for me… promises for me

# I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I LIKE THIS SONG VERY MUCH RECENTLY. PERHAPS THE LYRICS IS SO TOUCHING...

Congratulation to My Dear Friend Vick.

I would like congratulate my friend, Vick for realeasing his first EP

Singing and music are one of his dream. Honestly i dont much bout his dream or life style because i only get to know
him during the Malaysian Idol.

I still remember that time everyone in Malaysia is having Malaysian Idol Fever. Everywhere, everyone is talking bout
Malaysian Idol Contest. I performing at the Malaysian Idol Contest. His voice impress me much and he the reason why
i start get to know more about dont like much till one day i accidently switch the channel to TV3 and accidently
watch a guy named Vick Malaysian Idol and i support him from the first time i listen to his voice.

After few years, now finally his EP is out in the market.

I cant express my feeling now because been part of his friend, i was so proud and also happy to see his success.

He is a talented artist. I really wish he can become 2nd Nicholas Teo.

Dear friend, good luck and also wishing you good luck in ur future undertaking. Really proud to be your friend.

I would like congratulate my friend, Vick for realeasing his first EP

Singing and music are one of his dream. Honestly i dont much bout his dream or life style because i only get to know
him during the Malaysian Idol.

I still remember that time everyone in Malaysia is having Malaysian Idol Fever. Everywhere, everyone is talking bout
Malaysian Idol Contest. I performing at the Malaysian Idol Contest. His voice impress me much and he the reason why
i start get to know more about dont like much till one day i accidently switch the channel to TV3 and accidently
watch a guy named Vick Malaysian Idol and i support him from the first time i listen to his voice.

After few years, now finally his EP is out in the market.

I cant express my feeling now because been part of his friend, i was so proud and also happy to see his success.

He is a talented artist. I really wish he can become 2nd Nicholas Teo.

Dear friend, good luck and also wishing you good luck in ur future undertaking. Really proud to be your friend.

a Dream, a Wish, a HoPe, a Way & a Life

Since the 1st time i put my feet on the land of KL, i really shock and like KL alotz. I just dont know why. Perhaps is the living style and also enviroment there. At fisrt, i though i just having culture shock but after time by time, i realise perhaps is my big ambition and also my attitue make me like KL alotz. Maybe this is because the high tech and advance tech there make me feeling wanna try a life in KL. i really dont know is this my correct decission or not. But so sad my parent doesnt allow me to try my luck there till something miracle happen last month. I went for Genting interview and i was selected to work with them. At first, i though my parent for sure wouldnt allow me to go but i guess i was wrong. After some talk between them, they allow me to go to try. I really happy but also sad and scare. I happy cos my dream have come true. I sad because i have to let go everything here and be apart from my family and frens. I scare cos this is the first time i going to live alone with out family and also try my luck in others place. I also worry does i really can manage my job well and will i success in the future and can i really help up my family financial or not. My daddy i going to retire soon and i still have a bro and sis who still studying. I know my bro have a big ambition and also wish can futher his study at oversea. If according at our family financial now, i dont think he can make it to oversea. I guess is really time for me to think carefully not only my future but is my family future. SOmehow, no matter what, since i give a chance to try a luck, i will did it with all my best and really hope i really can have a good luck and happy with my upcoming job. This is my dream, my wish and also my hope. Now i ready to on my way to get closer to a new life. Now only leave 5 days before i need to be bravo and independent. So....now...i still wanna be daddy little girl....hahaha....DADDY!!!! i'm hungry...i want supper.... :p By the way, wish myself a happy birthday tomorrow (a chinese calender birthday) and hope everything will turn good and a brand new good start of my life. Tomorrow night i have asked my frens to KTV to celebrate with me...but still dont know are they going or not...anyway, never mind. Pen off 1st. Really very hungry, wanna go to kitchen to see got anything to eat or not now. SHsss....little mouse is coming to the kitchen. Hehehe...

ThaNkS fOR LoViNg mE BuT i'M sOrRy....

Thanks for loving me but i have say sorry to you. I know you going to see this so choose to tell you my feeling in here than voice it out to you face to face.

Even we just know each other not so long but i really wanna thank you for so caring bout me. You are really a very good friend. I'm glad that i meet you.

I really got thinking of giving you a change and hope we can start a relation. But this few days after i think and think, i found out i still cant forget him. I know you will say i'm stupid for waiting for something that will end up nothing. But sometimes love is blind. Even u know you going to hurt yourself but u still do the stupid thing which u still loving him. Thanks so much cos at this moment only you can see all my sorrow, pain and also problems.

Today i choose to tell u because i really think you are a good guy and i dont wanna waste your time. Looking no good isn't a problem to get a gf. Is your heart which going to make ppl touching. Honestly, if i meet you earlier than him, sure i going to be with you cos you will going to touch my heart. But the point is before i meet you, my heart have be stolen by him.

Dont worry bout me la...as like what u always say, i have to learn to grown up and now i trying to grown up.

Hey tell you what a... you are the 2nd guys in my life who see me crying ler. hahaha...honestly now, myself also dont know did i really happy now or not. Even i am near with him but our heart is like as far as a million mile.

I also dont know recently never have a good thing happen to me. Love, job, life, dreams, future,health all like suddenly become very blur. All become bad and out of control. My love relation become very messy between you, dylan and jas. I cant find a job which suit me and suddenly i lose my dreams. I just a girl without dreams. Suddenly i think i lose my future and i dont know what is future. As my health...i get sick more easily now. Last month, flu and sick for 3 times.

I just a ordinary girl but why god keep testing me. Till when then i can have a happy life and also find my Mr. Right. When will only my tears can replace by Smile?

Sometimes, i always think of pack a beg and i just walk and walk and walk....see i going to reach which destiny. ~>_<~

Anyway, thanks alot for loving me and be with me at this few month. Now i really need to let go you and wish all the best. Let me settle all those matter by myself ya. GamBaDay!!!!

Hope when we meet, we still good buddy. I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU TO BE MY BUDDY :p

-Bu Xin Fu dE Wang Xin Ling-